Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Mi Amor

Since today is Valentine's Day, I'd like to pay a little tribute to the love of my life. Brian is my best friend and I am so happy to be married to him. We really are a great fit. Sad, though, that this is the most recent picture of us I could find -

Years and years ago (probably 5 or 6) we had a family night at my parents house and my Dad had us each list on an index card the things we were most grateful for. Then on the back we listed the things we loved most about our spouses. I have kept mine in my wallet for all these years and will, from time to time, pull it out and read it. My list still holds true six years later, although I could add more. These are the things I wrote:

1. Great with children
2. Hardworking
3. Financially wise
4. Tells me I'm beautiful
5. Sense of humor
6. Independent
7. Willing to do what I ask

I love you Brian, even more today than I did when I wrote that list.

Happy Valentine's Day.

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Mysterious Infection

It all started on Sunday night. We were at my parents house, watching the the big game while the kids ran around and played. At one point, as Trent was walking down the stairs, he tripped on the second to last step and took a small tumble. He cried for a couple minutes and had a small scrap on his knee. Nothing to worry about.

About an hour or so later, Brian noticed that Trent was acting really stiff - shoulders lifted and not turning his head. Brian called Trent over and, while holding onto his shoulders, asked Trent to turn his head from one side to the other. This caused him obvious pain and he could not turn his head more than an inch each way. Brian then told me that when Trent had fallen earlier, he noticed that he had caught himself with one hand. So, we thought that maybe he had pulled a muscle. Once we got home, we gave him some medicine, hoping that he would feel better in the morning.

The next morning Trent complained that his neck hurt, but his movements seemed much better than they had been the night before. As the day wore on, Trent became more and more stiff and said he wanted more medicine. Unfortunately, we had used the last of what we had the night before. I had Trent lie down and rest for awhile and then after picking Ashlyn up from school, we headed to the grocery store. By the time we left the store, Trent was walking extremely slow with his shoulders pulled up and he wouldn't move his head at all. Once the medicine took effect, he seemed better again. Brian and I talked about taking him to get checked, but decided to wait one more day.

I gave Trent another dose of medicine first thing Tuesday morning and he seemed to be his normal, energy-filled self. I sent him off to preschool and when I went to pick him up, he looked miserable! He was taking very slow baby steps and again looked very, very stiff. His teacher was concerned about him and said that he wouldn't turn his head at all during class. When I told her what had happened, she said that one of her sons had once broken his collar bone and had had similar symptoms.

I had to carry Trent to the car and when I put him in his car seat, I noticed that he had a fever. I called Brian right away and told him what Miss Amy had said and that we needed to take him to the doctor right away. I called our pediatrician's office to ask if they had an x-ray machine, but they said no, so we decided to take him to urgent care. I picked Ashlyn up from school, got her dressed for dance, dropped her off at Mindy's, and then met up with Brian at urgent care.

Well, our theory of a pulled muscle or broken collar bone was quickly dismissed by the nurse practitioner. Trent had a temperature of 103.4 and he said Trent's glands were enlarged and that his tonsils were red and swollen. They did a strep test which came back negative. I thought that was a good thing, but the nurse practitioner said that it was bad news, that because of his symptoms it possibly meant an infection in his spinal column or meningitis. He told us we needed to go to the hospital where they could do blood work and a lumbar puncture.

As soon as I heard the word 'meningitis' my heart sank. I didn't know exactly what that meant, but remembered hearing stories of kids dying from meningitis. I called my parents to see if they could watch Luke while we went to Jordan Valley ER. Before going to the hospital, my Dad and Brian gave Trent a blessing. I had to carry Trent to and from the car because he was in such pain.

We were put in an isolation room at the hospital and waited for the doctor. When the doctor came in, he told us what the spinal tap would involve - Trent would have to be put under a fast-acting, temporary sedative with an amnestic effect so that they wouldn't have to hold him down and then he wouldn't remember a thing. The only problem with the sedative was that there was a slight chance he could stop breathing during the procedure and they would have to bag him.

The doctor suggested that they first do another strep test, just in case the urgent care test hadn't been accurate. We were really hoping that it would come back positive, but it didn't, so we had no choice but to proceed with the spinal tap. After one blown vein, the nurse took blood samples and got Trent hooked up to an IV. This was the worst part of the entire day for Trent. He cried and cried and didn't want any part of it! After the IV was in, we noticed a large wet spot under Trent's back from him sweating so much. He really had hated that part.

After Trent was hooked up, the doctor, nurse, and a medical assistant all came in. They also had to have a respiratory therapist come in to monitor his breathing. Trent was given the sedative and it was crazy how fast it took affect. He wasn't completely knocked out, and he maintained a tight grip on my hand during the procedure. I hated seeing him that way - he was there, but he wasn't and his eyes kept shifting. He also let out a loud moan when they put the needle in his back. So, so sad.

The doctor worked really fast and it was all done in less than 20 minutes. While we waited for the results to come back, we watched Trent come out of the meds. The respiratory therapist stayed in the room the longest, just to make sure his breathing was normal. While he watched Trent, he proceeded to tell us how his nephew had gotten meningitis and had lost his hearing. Great, thanks. The doctor also came back in at one point and told us a little more about meningitis, the possible side effects, and what steps would be taken next if the test came back positive. I really started worrying at this point, thinking that I was going to have to learn sign language because Trent was going to be deaf, or worse.

Luckily, and to our great relief, the tests came back negative and all the blood work was fine, except for a slightly heightened glucose level. Trent was given a popsicle and we were given the okay to leave. Before we left, they had Trent give a urinary sample and told us to follow up with our pediatrician in a couple of days.

The doctor said that he has a viral infection, they just don't know where. We are just suppose to continue giving him medicine to treat the fever and watch to make sure he doesn't get worse. Trent was all smiles as he walked out of the hospital. He'd had a popsicle and was given three sheets of stickers, and he proudly declared that he loved hospitals. Quite the change from when we had arrived.

We are extremely grateful that everything turned out okay. I still wish I knew exactly where the infection is and why Trent was in such pain, but we'll take the unknown over a meningitis diagnosis any day.

Today Trent is acting completely normal and has full mobility of his head and neck. Other than a slight fever, he is back to himself again. And now I am stuck wondering just how much that four-hour ER visit is going to cost us.

Monday, February 6, 2012

Rounds Two & Three

It's been awhile since I've done an update on my Dad. When people ask me how he's doing, my response is usually, "He's doing good. If you saw him, you wouldn't know he has cancer." And it's true. He really does look good. And he acts like his same, fun-loving, happy, positive self.

October was really a rough month for our family, but then the holidays came and I think that helped us all take our minds off it. Now, as my Mom said the other day in reference to his chemo treatments and side effects, "this is now our new normal." And it's normal to ask him how he is feeling, not just once, but two or three times during a visit. I don't think he's tired of me, yet. Actually, my Dad told me that knowing people are so concerned for him is one of the 'perks' of having cancer. See what I mean about the positive attitude?

So, after the first round of chemo, the secondary insurance that was suppose reimburse $4500 to my parents, did not follow through. After some inquiry, my Mom found out that they were not going to cover the chemo because it wasn't intravenous and therefore wasn't really considered to be true chemotherapy. Such crap.

Luckily, after a letter and an appeal to the manufacturer of the drug, my Dad was able to get a price reduction on the pricey chemo pills. They first told my parents that they made too much money to qualify for a price reduction. Really? Who can afford $4500 every six weeks? Fortunately, after my Dad sent in an appeal, they quickly changed their minds and my Dad now has a co-pay card that covers the remaining portion of chemo that the primary insurance doesn't cover.

Because of all that hassle, my Dad had to start his second round of chemo a week later than planned. And then, because of some heightened side effects, he stopped the treatment about a week early. The dosage was adjusted for round three to hopefully ease some of the side effects. He took a pill for three days and then had the fourth day off, and he repeated that schedule for the four week period. Round three ended Friday night and now we are anxiously awaiting his upcoming scan. The scan is a week from today and then he will meet with his doctor on the 21st to discuss the results. Prayers are much needed right now. We are all hoping for positive news - that the chemo treatments are working to shrink the cancer, or at the very least, that the growth has stopped.

So please, keep him in your prayers.


Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Identity Crisis

Fridays are my cleaning day. The whole house gets an overhaul, including new sheets on the beds. Generally I stay in my pajamas on those days because, really, what's the point in getting dressed to scrub toilets? Last Friday I took a break from cleaning to take Ashlyn to school. I was wearing my gray fleece bottoms, a gray t-shirt, and tennis shoes. Just before we headed out the door, Ashlyn looked at me at said, "Mom, maybe you should wear something a little more pretty. It kind of looks like you are just wearing pajamas." Apparently I have started embarrassing my kindergartener.

You know, when you're 7 1/2 months pregnant, it's easy to feel 'blah' about your appearance. Swollen ankles, 30+ pound weight gain, stretch marks, break-outs, etc. Half the time I don't feel like getting ready for the day, and the other half I'm too busy to put much effort into my appearance. Needless to say, it doesn't really help when a five-year-old tells you to put on "something a little more pretty." In all seriousness, I took no offense to her comment. It made me laugh.

But then today Trent very casually asked, "Mom are you a woman or a man?"

Now I'm starting to get a complex...

Maybe I should start putting make-up on more than once or twice a week.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

School Shmool

My cousin Jen called me early this afternoon to see if I wanted to join her for free zoo day. I declined, because well, I was still in my pajamas, I was about to feed the kids their lunch, and Ashlyn needed to be to school in less than and hour. But, maybe next time.

The kids were eating their lunch and I was cooking up some pork chops to put in the crock pot for dinner when I suddenly had a change of heart. I asked Ashlyn if she would mind missing school today. With a skeptical look on her face she asked me why and when I answered that I thought maybe we would go to the zoo instead, her facial expression changed to sheer excitement! Then she told me that, "I don't even like school that much anyway!" Okay then.

So off to the zoo we went! I felt a little guilty as we drove right passed her school. But, once we got to the zoo, I ran into our bishop's wife who, incidentally, had taken her kids out of school to also take advantage of free zoo day and then I felt great about the decision to skip school.

We met up with Jen and her sister-in-law and had a wonderful afternoon. The weather was perfect and the animals were all pretty active.

I even forked out $4.00 to get Ashlyn and Trent tickets to ride the carousel- something I am normally too cheap to splurge on.

It's nice to be a little spontaneous once in awhile. If it wasn't for Jen, I'd probably still be in my pajamas :o)


Tuesday, January 24, 2012

I Love My Kids

And I'll say it again, I love my kids. They are the best. Here's proof...

Ash Belle. This girl continues to make me laugh. Unfortunately, I'm not as good anymore about writing down and recording the funny things she says. And right now I am drawing a blank. But, she is definitely a light in our home. She has been reminding me lately that I really need to teach her how to do all the important things, like cooking, cleaning, and laundry so that she will know how to do those things when she is a mom someday.

Trenters. Oh this boy melts my heart. He is such a good boy. When it comes to his mama, this boy gives the best hugs and kisses. He is super sweet and loves to cuddle. When it comes to his dad, it is all rough and tumble, wrestling matches, and teasing. In case you didn't know, Brian likes to tease. He likes to push buttons and stir the pot. And his kids are not exempt from this. However, Trent has come up with a way to retaliate. He calls him names. Not just any names, but names that he has personally made up to be like a knife through the heart - "toot hog" and "baby biddle butt."

Baby Luke. Yes, that is what we call him. And he will hold that title and will be still my baby for roughly eight more weeks, give or take. He is at an awesome age. Everything he does is cute. Well, almost everything. Screaming in the middle of sacrament meeting - I could do without that one. Anyway, he is just adorable. Especially when he folds his arms to say prayers:

Kid Smiley #4. We have held to our resolve and have not told a soul what we are having. Well, I take that back. I have told two people - my eye doctor and the phlebotomist who last took my blood to test my glucose levels. Anyhow, I am thoroughly enjoying feeling my baby move. It is truly a miracle and like nothing else in this world. It is at this point in my pregnancies that I tend to forget how awful that first trimester was. Feeling and seeing the movements in my belly is one of the great joys of motherhood.

Life is good. Scratch that. Life is great.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

18 Months

Luke turned 18 months right smack dab in the middle of the holidays and therefore, I missed my opportunity to write up a post about this milestone. Technically he is now 19 months, but, better late than never!

Luke did have his 18 month check-up and all seemed well and normal, he just continues to be on the small side. He measured in at 23 lbs (15%) and 31.5 inches (6%). Good things come in small packages, right?

He is definitely in the "stranger danger" phase and wanted nothing to do with our pediatrician. He also wants nothing to do with, well, just about anyone, except his Mom and Dad. Nursery has not gone well thus far. And the last two sitters we got both said that he cried, a lot, while we were gone. I am hoping he passes through this phase quickly. Although, some would argue that he has been in this phase since the day he was born.

He is a fit thrower. The worst kind. The whole arching of the back, lying on the ground, limbs flailing about. It's fun (heavy sarcasm). No calming him down either. You just have to let him ride that train until he decides it's time to get off.

But, when Luke is happy, he is very happy. He has an adorable smile and a contagious laugh.

He still falls a lot, but there is no longer a constant bruise on his head. Those are becoming fewer and farther between. But, there have been a few doozies.

He has been completely weaned from his beloved binki. I think we did that back in November. We decided it would be best to get that taken care of before the new baby arrives. Speaking of new babies, I really think he will handle the whole 'big brother' thing really well. He absolutely loves his new baby cousin Megan and has showered her with hugs. But not kisses. He continues to be quite selfish with his kisses.

He has become completely obsessed with Cars, specifically Lightning McQueen and Mater. He is holding either one or the other, or both, about 80% of his waking hours. I am already planning on having a Cars theme for his 2nd birthday. He also wants to watch Cars every day. He will point to the tv and shout "Nining an Mayer!" over and over. He would watch it all day if I let him, but I don't. Once is enough. It is actually rare that I let him watch the whole thing. I usually will turn it on for 20 minutes or so, just to satisfy his craving. Luke has also started using Mater's coined phrase, "Dag-gum!"

One more thing. Luke bears and an uncanny resemblance to his father...